hmm stress mabey

well it seems i have found my rut to be stuck in for a while. i have noticed a boring- ness of me that is driving me mad... so i must now find ways to fix that... hmmm how shall i do this.. be nicer to people and make new friends... no that would ruin all the work i put in makeing people hate me..how about i kill people... no to messy... i know i could end it all... no thats too long term... wait i could get my self a girl friend... well lets see.. what girls are around for me to date that i know..uhh one of the sluts from work.. no they would read this and kill me.. how about one of the girls that live with me... (long story i should tell it some time.. if i havent already..) wait ones pregnant and dating a decent guy and the others dateing a fellon.... uhh how about school... no college is done till fall.. (or at least it is for me) what about one of the girls on facebook.. hold on arent most of them co workers or people from  high school that thought i smelled and called me mean names... hmmm mabey i should just give up.. wait what about my random customers... well besides the fact that i dont know an y of them and a less than 2 minute dialoug isnt really much to start anything with..so it should be one of my normal clients... well lets see 30% are old as hell and the other 70% are dudes.. that leaves me with... well wouldnt you know it the statistics are trying to turn me gay.. well i wont have it.. mostly cause i dont find guys atractive but also because i dont like beiong called gay.. (its one of the things i was called alot in high school) well i guess i should just kmeep writing boring blogs and working till better cercumstances come along..